I was reading a book, Beauty for ashes. It was a book of testimonies of women and specifically I placed myself about “worth the wait” pg90. It’s all about waiting patiently, seeking more of you and will surely blessed if you believe. I was thinking that I had quite -the same experienced with one of the women’s testimony there. Though I didn’t have a boyfriend-relationships experienced, I’ve fallen in love with a guy when I was in second yr college. (We were best friends) I got hurt so bad. Eventually, I moved on and I had noncommittal relationships (MU), twice but interestingly I was christian already that time.
I always ask You why did it happen. I waited for 6 yrs to finally know the answer. Thank You!
It seemed that I had a choice and You give me free will to choose. And I chose that, I know that You don’t want me to get hurt again so You are always making a way to pull me out in that kind of situation like “MU” thing.
I’m really sorry God, if I didn’t follow and obey you most of the time and when I’m being stubborn in heart and in mind. Sorry for all the times that I had “kilig” (butterflies in one’s stomach) for some guys that I shouldn’t, because I know now exactly that Jesus should be in my heart and He should be the one that makes me giggle, blooming or in love. I know and I believe that you will give me, my prince that has a heart of yours, who really loves you more than he loves me. Papa God, please help to focus on Jesus and please make my path straight and put some people who will surely guide me especially in this love relationship thing that soon a testimony for everyone. I ask for your abundant grace to wait patiently and happily for the one you will give. Help me to enjoy this season. Thank you for you know the desires of my heart, because it is You, who gave that desires. In Jesus name. Amen!
I learned that even if you’re christian already or having a relationship with Jesus, you might fall into temptations that you’ll go in wrong directions if you’re out of focus. He maybe used this experienced of mine as a testimony that I can always START A NEW!